Regardless of the day, perhaps even the storm you may be anticipating, let me remind you that you need not call all your friends for help. You may be watching the storm clouds forming and you can feel the air change from warm to chilly cold, you know it is coming and you better seek cover. Or perhaps, this storm has come out of nowhere and the day has been beautiful and this betrayal knocked you off your feet and you hit the floor sobbing in disbelief. This storm came quickly like a lightening bolt from around the corner.
I stand silently before the Lord, waiting for him to rescue me. For salvation comes from him alone. Yes, he alone is my Rock, my rescuer, defense and fortress. Why then should I be tense with fear when troubles come? Psalm 62:1-2
Why, because what was said was a lie. Because it assaulted my dignity and my character and it will ruin my reputation and it is so far from the truth of my heart. But He allowed the wind and the rain and the hail and the violent rain and dripping wet I sat on my sacred laundry room floor weeping and asking, knowing that He had given me this Word the day before. He had asked me, "Do you put your hope in Me alone?"
What does it mean to silently wait for God alone? I was reading Andrew Murray's book on Waiting, a book written in the 1800's, and I felt so convicted that I know so little of what it means to wait. I prayed all day about it and did not know my heart would be ripped out the next day. I sat on the floor with my hands open crying and asking that good would come, no, first I prayed it would all go away, then I prayed that good would come. I prayed this because that is who He is...the God who allows storms, the God who sees and comes close to the one crushed in spirit and the God who brings good out of what is not good.
But I stand silently before the Lord, waiting for him to rescue me. For salvation comes from Him alone. Yes, he alone is my Rock, my rescuer, defense and fortress-why then should I be tense with fear when troubles come? My protection and success come from God alone. He is my refuge, a Rock where no enemy can reach me. O, trust him at all the time. Pour out your longings before him, for he can help! Psalm 62:5-8
This was mine. It was severe and rattled me to the core. It was shameful and I knew the one who gave me the news did not want to tell me in fear of my response. But I needed to know as it had to come out. Truth has its place in our lives or we cannot move forward; but this was betrayal and this was hurtful from one I had confided in and trusted. This came from one I had told secrets to and asked for help. He had wounded me intentionally.
Today, whatever you are going through, be greatly encouraged and stand quielty before the Lord, or sit humbly on your laundry room floor, and wait for him to save you. For our salvation comes from Him alone! Don't go calling all your girlfriends, don't email everyone you know... do that another time to give Him credit for what He has done. But come before Him quietly and put your hope in Him for He longs to save. It is who He is. He is our Rock, our rescuer, our defense and our fortress. Why then should we be tense or afraid when troubles come? Today we will wait quietly and expectantly for the salvation of our God.
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